It's time...

I've realized lately how naive I am to the world around me. Well i guess I've known it for some time now, but it is beginning to annoy me. I wonder if I had taken another path in life how long it would have taken me to realize this. I've come to value the education that I have been blessed with and look forward to continuing it.

I love the thought of finishing my psychology degree. I want the knowledge. Psychology is always something that has interested me. That is partly the reason I chose Psychology as my major, the other part is because I believe it ties into acting. I definitely want to finish school and get my degree, it is just a matter of when that happens. I want to be a professional actor and make a living do it. I want to make respectable art and I fully believe that I can do it.

I went off on a little tangent there, but now I am back. :)

So the point to this blog is not my passion for acting (this time). It is about my desire for knowlege. I have had the honor of being surrounded by intelligent women this past year and I long for that intelligence. I often find myself in situations in which I can't carry on the conversation or cannot make sense of what people are saying. I hate having to wonder what people are talking about. Especially this past year during the election. I actually think that was when all my desire to know started. So I did a lot of reading and talking to people and I made a decision and I stick to it today. I feel so proud of myself and I want to have those opportunites more often.

So I made a list of books I want to read and I am really excited to expand my knowledge. Hopefully soon I will have a big vocabulary and i won't have to use a word like big in this sentence. We'll see, only time will tell!

Acting

I'm just going to delve right into this....

I LOVE watching the extra features on a movie. The bloopers. the making of, the commentaries...ect. I think from my point of view it's like taking an acting class. Each special feature has something for me to learn from. The bloopers show me how to fix a mistake and improvise - even if the improvisations are crap they can get you somewhere you didn't think of before. And hearing the actors say things about each other you realize that there is this brilliance that an actor has and it is so inspiring. And then you think "oh this actor added this humanity to this terrible character", that is something to keep in mind.

I have this longing to work with all these different people. Some of them from my perspective are just amazing and some are just so so - but I feel like everyone has something special to offer and you can learn that and take it with you. That is another reason I love acting - it's such a learning experience in itself. It's like - the people you meet are just so amazing. I never forget the people I've worked with because of that little something they brought out.

And it's so wonderful - the feeling that acting gives you. For how ever long it's OK to be someone else. And it's not necessarily that you want to be someone else, but it's that you can take things from your character too. Just everything about acting is such a learning experience for me. I have learned things from characters I've played; who I am, who I want to be, and who I don't want to be. And isn't it amazing how you can just become someone else? And make people believe that you ARE that person. I LOVE watching an actor on stage who has forgotten a line or something has happened that is not right and they just role with it. And NEVER break character. They just know what that character would say or do.

There is just so much passion is this art and it blows me away every time I think about it.