Sunday, September 28, 2008

almost twenty-one

I'm on the verge of turning 21. I can't believe it - I can't believe I'm actually about to be 21. I can buy a bottle of wine, or have a martini when I'm out to eat. I can even get a beer at a ballgame.

I feel free.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

teen pregnancy on Tyra

http://tyrashow.warnerbros.com/2008/09/tomorrows_show_the_teen_pregna.php#comments

I'm watching this now I want to cry

I really want to cry

I can't believe this was me - they are all so naive...that was me. I can't believe the things they are saying and then I remember - oh my god I said that exact thing. We need more education..more information in sex ed. It needs to be a course taken every year with more in depth topics as students get older. These girls think everything is going to be ok and it will...but it won't be ok like they are thinking it will. It will be a different kind of ok.

I ache for these girls. I want to give them hugs. I want this to stop. I want young people to stop thinking that it's ok to have sex when you're 12. I want people to stop thinking that they have to have sex to fit in or just because everyone else does it so whats the big deal? I remember people saying they respected me for being a virgin. Being a virgin is something to be proud of.

I want parents to educate their children. I don't want parents to tell their children to not have sex. I want their parents to tell them the truth and the risks. I want them to tell them about protection. I want children to be able to understand their bodies and what goes on in them. So parents need to tell them. And the parents need to make it clear that whenever a problem arises about their bodies or sex that it's ok to talk to them. That their children won't get in trouble.

Some of the comments left on the website were sickening to me. Someone said something about how the show didn't show how good it could be. Excuse my language but what the hell? Why on earth would you say that on a show about the hardships of teen pregnancy. Yea it can be good because you have someone you love unconditionally and it's so powerful but don't sugarcoat it. It's hard and it's exhausting, and you will NEVER have the kind of life you should have. Tell that to the teens who think it's OK. And one girls talked about how she's worked so hard and got a job and all this and said "not all young moms are ruining their lives" thanks for stating the obvious but that doesn't make it a good thing to do. She's not talking to girls that have kids...shes talking to ones who are doing it who are risking it.

This breaks my heart.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

I should be writing a paper...

But instead I decided to blog...eh what can you do. I needed to get in the writing mood.
I actually wanted to come on and post this anyways.

I was driving in my car today when i came to a red light. I was stopped behind and car and I immediately noticed their bumper sticker.


This was not the car that I saw but I googled the picture and found numerous outraged bloggers with this picture. So I borrowed it.

Back to my topic. I am so disturbed. Who are you to say what marriage equals? And that's not even what bothered me so much. Just the whole gay thing. How can people say it's a choice. I'm not gay but I know a few gay people, who to me are just people like everyone else, and from what I understand it's not. I mean sure if you want to call it a choice - here's the choice..."do I come out and tell everyone how I really feel, or do I hold my feelings inside and live a lie for the rest of my life?" Honestly - who cares if a boy likes a boy? A girl likes a girl? A girl like a guy? A guy likes a girl and guy? In the grand scheme of things does it REALLY matter? Is that what you're REALLY concerned about? In the end God will judge. In the end when everyone is face to face with God (if you believe that sort of thing which I do) he will decide what your destiny is. So why worry about it now? What are YOU going to do about it? If you don't like it look the other way. And you don't have to like it or agree with it. I understand that some people just think it's wrong and that's OK - but don't flaunt it all over the place. That's pretty rude. We're all just people, we all are different people who have dreams, make mistakes, and who have passions - we are all just people. Love is love - boy girl, girl girl, boy boy...L O V E.








Onto something else I found the other day. Sunday Secrets...ahhh you gotta love them :). If you don't know what I am talking about I will inform you. Post Secret started as an art project, I believe, when this man asked people to send in homemade postcards of their secrets...anonymously. There are now 4 books (correct me if I'm wrong), a website - http://postsecret.blogspot.com/ - and numerous fan sites and pages. So every Sunday Frank, who is the genius who started it all, posts "Sunday Secrets". I found one post card that almost moved me to tears - which is not a rarity.


I reads, "You made me someone I'm proud to be stretchmarks and all." That will never leave me heart.


Now that I can barely keep my eyes open I'll try to write my essay....

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

welllllll...

Ok Ok...so maybe school is getting a little better. I'm still tired - but I think I can tough it out for this semester. I love ALL of my professors and am really interested in my psychology and anthropology classes. I do have a few papers coming up and I've had quite a few assignments, but I seem to be working through them. Which is quite surprising if you know me.

In more exciting news...Landyn started preschool today! He absolutely loved it! He walked right in with slight hesitation but I was told he did wonderful! He had early release today so Robyn picked him up so that I could go to class. I went to pick him up from Robyn's house and he told me he wanted to stay with Robyn and go back to school. It's so reassuring to know that he loved his class and that he loves being with Robyn. He is learning his teacher's names and said he played with toys and made new friends. He's excited to go back on thursday. I am so proud of him.

I'm so glad that I found true happiness in the past year or so. I'm not sure I would have been ready to make this journey without it.